Done so much, yet accomplished so little..

Wedding planning is the least gratifying experience I have ever gone through. I hate it.

Planning for this day is just so odd. Obviously, I have never planned for a big event before. I haven't purchased very many services, just goods. So when you put a bunch of money down for something in which you only receive a receipt, it feels uncomfortable.

I hate not being able to hold things, investigate things, make it mine. I would love nothing more than to do a mock up of the reception location each and every time a new decision is made. I'm so visual.

So I'm taking on the task of making a lot of things -- invitations, save the dates, even some decorations. I hope I'm not insane, or go insane from all of this.